I'm loving my day!

Good morning! There is always a day when you wake up feeling good, just feeling good, without any specific reason, even if this day is a very usual one of your life. It happened to me this morning. I like that. It's like I have no problems in my life and I'm trying to live it as it is, no complains. I wish that feeling remains for a longer time... It gives some kind of positive energy. It helps to surpass all the negative feelings. It makes you smile all day long.
I'm loving my day!

I Cry

    I found this poem so expressive that I couldn't pass by without posting it. It describes a human state which anybody can feel and experience. There were times when I felt like that... many times, actually. Hope you enjoy reading it:

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confide in,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why. 

by Tupac Shakur 

I Walk Alone

Put all your angels on the edge
Keep all the roses, I'm not dead
I left a thorn under your bed
I'm never gone

Go tell the World I'm still around
I didn't fly, I'm coming down
You are the wind, the only sound
Whisper to my heart
When hope is torn apart
And no one can save you

I walk alone
Every step I take
I walk alone
My winter storm
Holding me awake
It's never gone
When I walk alone

Go back to sleep forever more
Far from your fools and lock the door
They're all around and they'll make sure
You don't have to see
What I turned out to be
No one can help you

I walk alone
Every step I take
I walk alone
My winter storm
Holding me awake
It's never gone
When I walk alone

Waiting up in heaven
I was never far from you
Spinning down I felt your every move

I walk alone
Every step I take
I walk alone
My winter storm
Holding me awake
It's never gone
When I walk alone

by Tarja Turunen

Birthday

Good morning. Today is my husband's birthday. I wish if I could be with him today. I wish if we could celebrate it together. I was the first to say happy birthday to him, at 00:01. That was special, somehow. As I said in an older post, I will knit a scarf for him as a birthday gift. I didn't buy the material yet; I'm still feeling sick. I will buy it soon anyway. There are plenty of yarns to choose from...
Actually, he likes scarves. He had a brown one when we first met. It was small and short, but he used to like it a lot. I didn't. I liked another one, with vivid colors; blue, yellow... Well, I think he will like to have one with his favorite colors, blue and gray. I don't know yet which one to choose, but it will be one of them, maybe both...

Lonely

Sometimes, it happens to you to feel lonely, even if you're m surrounded by people. You feel like there is nobody who can really understand what you're going through. Nobody who can really help you getting out of the shell. You may be needing something, but you don't know what it is. You may be hiding something, but you don't really know what it is. You may be wanting something, but you don't know what it is!

Drowning in the sea of your fears
Looking for a light to reach
Watching your lost dreams
Flying, leaving as they did
Before...

You watch and you weep
You cry and then you creep
You leave it all,
you leave it all...

Towards the unknown
You dive
Through darkness and fear
You dive,
and dive...
and dive...

Joblessness

Dictionaries say:

job·less

1: having no job

2: of or relating to those having no job <jobless benefits>

— job·less·ness noun

 

I say:

job·less

1: having no job

2: having no money for your own

3: having no self confidence

4: having an empty life

5: waiting for a 'host' either a father or a husband

6: watching people work while you are useless

7: hearing long talks about you being jobless

8: feeling depressed, empty and unworthy

9: hating your life

10: being lost

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Birthday gift

The day after tomorrow is my husband's birthday. Actually, weren't living together; he's abroad for work. So, I've been thinking about the gift I may give him while he's there, but no idea came to my mind. Finally, I decided to prepare two gifts. One that I can send him while he's far away, and another to give him when he returns back home next month.

For the first one, I got some ideas from some responses in a forum, one was writing something in a birthday card and record a message so he keep replying it until he gets back home. I liked that!
For the second, I thought of knitting a scarf for him... I'm sure he will like it, but I'm not sure if he will use it or not. Anyway, now I'm thinking about the color he may like, I know he likes blue and gray, so i think I will  choose one of them, or maybe both. I planned to go and buy the materials two days ago but I got sick. I'm planning to go in the coming days. I have plenty of time...

I love my husband, and I want every birthday gift I give him to be more special than the one before :) last year I made a slide-show where I added pictures that make us recall our beautiful memories. He was so happy to receive it... He was abroad that day too. For people I love, I like to give them original gifts. It doesn't matter how much they cost, but I like them to remember it like something special from all what they get the day of their birthday.